In the past when my then husband and I went to tapings of Radio 4 programs he would ring up the ticket unit and see what was available.
A while back I noticed on of my far-too-many RSS feeds told me tickets for The Now Show were available. I signed up for the first and last show of the series, received an email telling me my request had been received then pretty much forgot about it.
Yesterday I noticed a text on my phone from “message” with no other info, telling me I had tickets for the taping. No information as to where it was, though I suspect it was at Broadcasting House. They sent no other info at all, no email.
I thought of calling the Beeb to see if this was standard operating procedure, but in the end I just gave up.
Yesterday was a weird day. Too much negativity and death. I made jokes. I deal with things by making jokes.
Things are a bit weird right now. I’m trying very hard to finally get some closure regarding last year but that’s backfiring quite spectacularly. But I’ve handled it with a lot of aplomb and maturity and am pretty proud of myself. It really is all about self confidence, the real freedom is being comfortable doing what you feel right.
Still, I think I’d prefer closure right now, I don’t really care so much about being right.
In the end I decided not to go to the taping, as much as I love The Now Show. I just didn’t feel like it. I worry about Riz, my ears are due a syringing and in the meantime I’ve got a head full of gloppy olive oil and can’t hear properly and I feel anxious. Once I get an idea in my head of what will fix something, it’s hard to shift it. And once I get stuck on an idea I feel tremendous anxiety until I act on it.
A on-again-off-again friend organised a leaving do for tonight, and lots of people I know will be there. Still feeling a bit yesterday, a bit last year. I might just opt for a quiet night in with Riz instead.